Color me completely annoyed with this entire week.

It’s probably hit me many times before, but this time I think it’s going to stick.  I think I’ve had one of the hardest weeks in a long time.  I have to change everything.  I have to focus on what brings me joy in this life [...]]]> UGH.

Color me completely annoyed with this entire week.

It’s probably hit me many times before, but this time I think it’s going to stick.  I think I’ve had one of the hardest weeks in a long time.  I have to change everything.  I have to focus on what brings me joy in this life before it’s too late.  I am so conscious of the fact that the older I get, the faster the days go by.  My life is going by even faster with every year I’m alive.  I realize that I am nowhere near where I want to be.  I wasted the majority of my fun young adult years on a love that turned out to be absolutely nothing.  I decided to go for the safe and stable career instead of the one fraught with risk but would probably make so happy I could care less.  This is not what I signed on for.

So once again, I’ve  decided to make everyday count.  After a few nights hanging out on flickr thanks to a blog post from Chase Jarvis, I’ve become inspired once again.  I’ve had this damn 7d for two years and I’m nowhere near where I want to be technically or creatively. It’s the perfect time to start thinking creatively.  I’ve signed on a few friends to help me with 3 photo projects that I hope will span the year.  As nervous as the scheduling and overall planning process of each shoot makes me, it’s not as daunting as the one that features me.  I plan on doing one self-portrait a week for the rest of the year, starting next week.  I hate taking pics because I consider myself to be on the chubby side these days and my face is fat as hell (especially since I cut all my hair off on February 1st).  But I have to get past that.  And who knows.  I just ordered a cafe bike on Wednesday and it’s on the way.  Maybe this will exercise will chronicle my awesome weight loss as well as hone my technical and creative photography skills.  Whatever.  I think it will be one of those things that will help me move forward in this thing called life.

So that’s it I guess.  The start of something new, something real, something good.  It makes me smile to think about.

Stay tuned…