Color me completely annoyed with this entire week.
It’s probably hit me many times before, but this time I think it’s going to stick. I think I’ve had one of the hardest weeks in a long time. I have to change everything. I have to focus on what brings me joy in this life before it’s too late. I am so conscious of the fact that the older I get, the faster the days go by. My life is going by even faster with every year I’m alive. I realize that I am nowhere near where I want to be. I wasted the majority of my fun young adult years on a love that turned out to be absolutely nothing. I decided to go for the safe and stable career instead of the one fraught with risk but would probably make so happy I could care less. This is not what I signed on for.
So once again, I’ve decided to make everyday count. After a few nights hanging out on flickr thanks to a blog post from Chase Jarvis, I’ve become inspired once again. I’ve had this damn 7d for two years and I’m nowhere near where I want to be technically or creatively. It’s the perfect time to start thinking creatively. I’ve signed on a few friends to help me with 3 photo projects that I hope will span the year. As nervous as the scheduling and overall planning process of each shoot makes me, it’s not as daunting as the one that features me. I plan on doing one self-portrait a week for the rest of the year, starting next week. I hate taking pics because I consider myself to be on the chubby side these days and my face is fat as hell (especially since I cut all my hair off on February 1st). But I have to get past that. And who knows. I just ordered a cafe bike on Wednesday and it’s on the way. Maybe this will exercise will chronicle my awesome weight loss as well as hone my technical and creative photography skills. Whatever. I think it will be one of those things that will help me move forward in this thing called life.
So that’s it I guess. The start of something new, something real, something good. It makes me smile to think about.